@MissySki I totally identify with your post -- which is why I decided last yr and again this yr to spend a month at TSV. Amazingly enough, I really made great progress last season, and got to that place you mentioned where it started feeling natural, and I suddenly realized that I was skiing directly into bump runs without stopping at the top and gazing down in terror, LOL! Of course, I'm talking about runs that I felt were within my skill set, but as the moth progressed I was doing easy black bump runs without a second thought, and even started progressing to ones that were more challenging. One of the great advantages of being there for so long was that I was able to ski right after the storms, when the bumps were just being created (soft baby-bumps), and continue to ski on them as they got bigger. It really helped allay the fear-factor.
So my point is that it really makes a difference to be able to progress from easier bumps to harder ones, and having the time to do it in an unbroken stretch is huge! For once, I didn't feel like I would forget everything I had learned after a wk, and have to relearn it all next time.