I rode Heil today (2.5 miles uphill, then counter clockwise on the Ponderosa Loop, then branched off from that loop to take the Wild Turkey loop, then riding back up the section of Ponderosa Loop I came down and then back down the stem of the lollipop). It's considerably more technical than Springbrook, my confidence building trail, and in fact I would say Wild Turkey is more technical than Mosquito Coast, a blue at Keystone. There are no steep sections on Wild Turkey, but there are a lot of rock sections that are intimidatingly narrow/angled/weirdly aligned.
I rerode some sections, but eventually decided that if I did that every time I dabbed, I'd be there all day (instead of only half the day!). I think there was only one downhill section I just couldn't bring myself to ride due to the weird angles. (There were several uphill sections I didn't make). My head knew I could ride it, but my body said NO WAY and just wouldn't start pedaling. On the other hand, there were any number of sections that I rode successfully where my mind was yelling "YOU'RE GOING TO FALL!" while my body said "Hey, I got this." One in particular, I was too close to stop before I realized what was coming, but I managed to drop the seat post (yay!) and just rode it out. Phew.
Heading back up the loop, I was surprised at how well I maintained my balance and forward momentum over a trail full of loose baby head rocks and other challenges. I think in past years, I might have gotten annoyed at myself for getting stopped periodically, but today I was surprised by how much of it I could ride.
Oh! There was one of those rock shelf things exactly like the ones I usually get stuck on going uphill. I thought "Just Keep Pedaling!" ... and it worked. I totally cleared it. Just gotta keep doing that and trusting in my bike and my legs.
I was a little concerned that Heil would bruise my ego, but I know that I never did clear the whole trail, and I guess my whole attitude today was just different. I knew it was going to be challenging. BMA has done a lot of maintenance, so some sections are much easier, while others have been turned into rock gardens. I just wish my bike weren't so noisy going down bumpy things. I wonder if a 1x11 would fix that ...