You must have missed the crossbow.
That short story I mentioned, "On Not Climbing The Grand"' by Pam Houston.... It's been a long time since I read it, but I remember really identifying with it. It was an examination of "why am I here, (roped up on the Grand Teton) anyway?" Do I want to be here? Am I trying to please my partner? Etc. She is a writer who has been a guide, and I really have appreciated her take on the male/female dynamic, especially when it comes to the great outdoors, adventures, and women in love with men who are not always available because of testosterone issues. All her books are story collections, semi - autobiographical. My favorite collection is "Cowboys Are My Weakness". One of my favorite quotes is from one of her stories, and I'm not sure if this is it, exactly: "I may be be college educated and know better, but I love it when he calls me baby" ".
Another good read which is a much more mature version of this dynamic ( male/female/adventure/relationship) is Forget Me Not by Jennifer Lowe Anker. Alex Lowe was on of the worlds top climbers, and was killed in an avalanche several years ago. They had a family with three sons. She talks about balancing love, fear, and passion/obsession.....what it is like to choose to love and be with someone who is possessed by a drive for deep adventure. Part of her story, is Alex's partner Konrad, who was there when he died, and they married later. Married to a guy who's into class five boating, I related a lot to this book.