It is like being glued. The instructor says move and I can't lol.
Here are some suggestions on the psychological front, to add to
@liquidfeet's lovely suggestions. Not all of these will help, but one of them might.
1) Practice deep breathing during your regular life, like, all the time: sit comfortably, close your eyes, and breathe slowly and deeply, listening to the sound of the breath. Remind yourself that this is how you breathe when everything is OK, when you are not in any danger. If this helps you relax, you will get to a point where just starting to breathe deeply relaxes you instantly, and, paradoxically, you will find yourself thinking more clearly. Then, do it every time on the bunny hill, just before a run, especially before you make your attempts to go faster on the bunny hill. Once your confidence builds, try it when you are glued on the snow on the next slope up. Sometimes it helps to feel yourself basking in the sun or being caressed by the wind or being invigorated by the cold, whichever way the weather is; imagine the energy being shone/blown into you to give you strength, to assure you that everything is OK.
2) You could use a mantra you can use to remind yourself that it will be OK. For some people, it works better to say that even the worst case scenario will not be that bad. On the bunny hill, for instance, with short skis that beginners use, even if you just straight-line down the hill, you will likely come to a full stop before the lift; not all bunny hills are built this way, but a lot of them are, and that means "there is nothing to fear" because "I will come to a stop". On the green hills, anyone who can hold a wedge can make it down safely; again, "there is nothing to fear" and "I have the skill to do this". For others, it works better to be more pep-talk-y, like "you've got this", or reminders of technique, like "maintain the wedge" and "weight forward". Another good reminder, once you can turn more comfortably, is that "speed is my friend, and makes it easier to turn." And, remember that the beginner slopes are only about 10 degrees or so in steepness; take a look at a protractor, and see just how mild 10 degrees is, make a ramp that is at 10-degree incline, and roll a toy car or a ball down it, and tell yourself "10 degrees is nothing!" Say your mantra out loud if that helps. Say it confidently and firmly, or assuringly and kindly, whichever works. The idea is not for the truth of the mantra to really sink in, but to displace whatever conscious or subconscious self-discouragement you may be saying to yourself. To empty your mind, so to speak.
3) When you are starting a steeper run, point downhill, with a firm pizza, preferably on that top bit where it hasn't quite started sloping down seriously, yet. As you hold your wedge, imagine yourself sliding down at a steady speed. Feel how that would feel on your feet, in your legs, how much strength it would take, exactly how much energy it would take. Let yourself slide down a little, just a little, then sharpen the edges to stop. Once you feel comfortable with your ability to stop, go a little more forward each time. (Remember that it's easier to hold the edge if your body is forward, although your instinct will tell you to go backward. It is the
opposite of when you are stepping on the brakes while driving, where you push your body back to push the foot forward; when skiing, your whole body has to put its weight onto the brake pedal, on the balls of your feet, like when you are pressing down on a bike pedal to sprint.) Once you reach a certain speed, you will find that you can no longer stop immediately by wedging; still, you will eventually slow yourself down, or at worst find yourself going down at a steady speed. (It's only 10 degrees!) This is what you are aiming for. Keep yourself going, and congratulate yourself. "There is nothing to fear as long as my speed is steady." Once you can master this, you can add gentle turning with a little weight shift. This whole sequence may teach you some bad habits you need to unlearn later, and can be very tiring, but it will train your brain to firmly believe that you will always have the ability to stop or maintain the speed. (I will let you in a secret, though; the same trick will come back in handy when you are learning some of the more advanced techniques, like side-stepping and rotary turns for very steep hills.)
I hope this helps!
