Thought that I should update this.
Nearly a year on since some kind out of control lady took out both my ACLs and generally traumatised both my up-until-then OK knees. Been a long, stiff, sore haul - but although not exactly as planned, I am pleased to report that I am skiing and boarding again. Not as planned because I had intended to take it easy, practice, do gentle pisted slopes, get lots of instruction and... Yeah, well.
Turns out that we've had a reasonable season for English skiing, never mind Scottish. So outing number one was straight up a very long, very bumpy poma lift and repeated trips down a snow-covered moorside, lots of sharp jump and pivot turns, skids and sharp hockey stops avoiding tufty grass, old sunken mineshaft holes and streams. Yes, we are mad! Then it was up to Scotland on ungroomed runs and deep powder - and more long and tiring drag lifts - then back to deeper ungroomed ( heavy and wet snow usually) terrain in England; and repeat...
Well, I'm still standing
. My muscles had lost all their stamina: but I can feel power, stamina and strength coming back each time that I ski. I started not being able to do more than a couple of hours max before I got stiffness, slowness and 'blocking' feelings in my upper leg and knee areas, but I'm now able to go on for 4+ hours without stopping or resting ( and this is on constant drag lifts - yuk!) and not have any significant problems. Developed some problem with the outside of one knee, some swelling and pretty painful and stiff after a day's skiing but not a problem when on the slopes, and I hope that it's slowly getting better, physio doesn't think it's anything serious. I blame it on the drag lifts: seriously, puts a bad pull on my knees.
To be honest, with a stressful house move and a lot to do afterwards, I haven't been doing any rehab exercises and none of my former hill walking, so I'm very pleased at how it's been going. Not my old knees or legs any more, still pains and problems, mostly muscular I think, but some hope that it won't be too bad and that I'll be able to ski pretty well again if I can get my strength up properly. Boarding has been fine except when I was 'punting' along with my rear leg and it slipped out from under me; ouch! Something else I'm very wary of with the board, slipping on chairlift dismounts ( if I ever find one again) and the like.
As for the confidence... First few times out I was utterly terrified, worse than a beginner. It was horribly embarrassing. Half the time I just stood there unprepared to move: until I realised I had no choice so had to find a way down, no matter how much I hated it. My sideslipping has improved no end... I was so afraid of falling or jarring my knees, wouldn't go over any rough or banked ground, refused to go down anything steep. Couple of good tumbles and on off-piste cartwheel and ski release soon put paid to that! I'm still, however, very aware of what could happen if I fall - but in general I'm about as confident as I was before, doing small jumps, happy on rough slopes etc. Not tried ice or hardpack though, nor anything too steep or long.
I notice that walking I'm still scared on anything slippy, which is that same fear of falling and reinjuring myself.
Anyhows, that's where we're currently at. Not as good as a year ago, but a darn sight better than I could have been. Hopefully there's a couple more months to go this season, so time to get better yet; might even finally find somewhere to get those lessons. The UK is not exactly predictable or long-lasting good conditions, so you just have to grab whatever's available, as and when. Not going abroad this year: insurance cost too high and a lot of money when I'm not strong enough to make the most of it, nor I think able to do 6 long days on the run. Next year, hopefully.
Just treated myself to some new piste skis, so hope there'll be some decent carving practice soon.
Best wishes too everyone struggling with injuries.