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I’m currently sitting in the lovely sun at the bottom of a chairlift while our friends ski, calming down from a panic attack that hit me out of nowhere! Just looking for tips, resources etc that may have helped other people who’ve gone through similar?nice never dealt with this. I wasn’t prepared for this and I don’t know what’s wrong or how to get my head back.
This is my first time back on skis since falling two weeks ago. I was at revelstoke doing an incredible two day free ride women’s clinic, I had been pushing myself all weekend and having a great time, no fear of the steeps, did my first double black diamond even. On the way down for lunch I was on a black diamond groomer. Was feeling confident and going fast, and then going into a left turn I caught an edge and fell. The pitch was big and steep and I fell a looong time and ways with a lot of speed behind me. Like I thought I’d never stop. My heavy powder skis didn’t release from my bindings on the initial fall and I was terrified to try and stop myself or to let my skis dig in as I could just picture my knee ripping. So I kind of contorted myself I guess and kept my skis in the air, sliding on my side/back every which way. When I stopped, I was OK - my right ankle hurt, wrists, right hip, right back we’re all sore but that was thankfully the extent of the injuries. I did finish skiing down and then did another run, in the powder though I never went back on a groomer that day. I called it after the powder run because of the ankle instability and took the gondola down.
Saw my physio and my ankle is just a mild sprain, I had a bad sprain from a slip walking 4 years ago that I seem to have flared up during the fall. I’ve been looking forward to this ski trip with friends for a long time and over the past two weeks I never thought I’d be scared from the fall - wasn’t a thought in my brain as I love skiing so much.
anyways, here we are - beautiful sunny day at Panorama Resort great conditions good groomer day. we head up to the top to warm up with an easy blue. Ankle feels ok in the boot, maybe a little weak and stiff but I don’t think I’ll make it worse by skiing on it. We head down the blue and other than being slow I was doing allright. BUT, then we get to a part with a long steep pitch and I started skiing it but after turn 1 I got overwhelmed with anxiety, shaking, couldn’t breathe, afraid to turn left. It’s like every time I turn left I’m waiting for my edge to not release and for me to fall straight down the hill again. Mind over matter I tell myself but I just can’t seem to relax and get my groove or technique back. By the time I got to the bottom of the chair I was crying as I’m so mad at myself.
This isn’t logical for me - I love skiing want to be enjoying this day! What the actual hell is going on in my mind and body how do I get it under control so I can ski steeps again?
This is my first time back on skis since falling two weeks ago. I was at revelstoke doing an incredible two day free ride women’s clinic, I had been pushing myself all weekend and having a great time, no fear of the steeps, did my first double black diamond even. On the way down for lunch I was on a black diamond groomer. Was feeling confident and going fast, and then going into a left turn I caught an edge and fell. The pitch was big and steep and I fell a looong time and ways with a lot of speed behind me. Like I thought I’d never stop. My heavy powder skis didn’t release from my bindings on the initial fall and I was terrified to try and stop myself or to let my skis dig in as I could just picture my knee ripping. So I kind of contorted myself I guess and kept my skis in the air, sliding on my side/back every which way. When I stopped, I was OK - my right ankle hurt, wrists, right hip, right back we’re all sore but that was thankfully the extent of the injuries. I did finish skiing down and then did another run, in the powder though I never went back on a groomer that day. I called it after the powder run because of the ankle instability and took the gondola down.
Saw my physio and my ankle is just a mild sprain, I had a bad sprain from a slip walking 4 years ago that I seem to have flared up during the fall. I’ve been looking forward to this ski trip with friends for a long time and over the past two weeks I never thought I’d be scared from the fall - wasn’t a thought in my brain as I love skiing so much.
anyways, here we are - beautiful sunny day at Panorama Resort great conditions good groomer day. we head up to the top to warm up with an easy blue. Ankle feels ok in the boot, maybe a little weak and stiff but I don’t think I’ll make it worse by skiing on it. We head down the blue and other than being slow I was doing allright. BUT, then we get to a part with a long steep pitch and I started skiing it but after turn 1 I got overwhelmed with anxiety, shaking, couldn’t breathe, afraid to turn left. It’s like every time I turn left I’m waiting for my edge to not release and for me to fall straight down the hill again. Mind over matter I tell myself but I just can’t seem to relax and get my groove or technique back. By the time I got to the bottom of the chair I was crying as I’m so mad at myself.
This isn’t logical for me - I love skiing want to be enjoying this day! What the actual hell is going on in my mind and body how do I get it under control so I can ski steeps again?